Where do I start?

2019 for me was a roller coaster ride. Parang Magic Mountain. lol!

It started with Vinny and Franny got married in February. Definitely a milestone in my family. I gained a daughter. I now have 2 daughters who I love so much. I feel so blessed that Vinny found Franny. She’s the perfect daughter in law anyone can ever have. I love her like my own.

Spring 2019 I went to NYC for a much-needed vacation. You all know my favorite city is New York. I had so much fun. I ate a lot and shopped. I got to see good friends.

A few months after I came back from New York I found out Franny is pregnant! I did not know what to feel. Vinny and Franny are panicking and I have to assist them every step of the way.

Every day is still a struggle for me. I am not quite used to the idea that I and the kids are now living separately. It’s so hard to process in my head. Altho’ I get to see them a lot it’s the fact that the unit is finally broken. Which I have to accept. I never thought that empty nesting is this hard and painful. Letting go of my kids is the most painful thing that I have ever felt in my life.

That’s why we have to make an extra effort to see each other as much as we can. They’re the only ones who can make me leave the house. I have been isolating myself ever since I moved.

I don’t know if it’s because of age or because of past ugly experience with people that made me more choosy who I allow in my life now. I only have a handful of friends that I see on a regular basis and who I allow in my circle.

I just can’t stand drama anymore. I don’t have time for that. I want a peaceful life.

I spent the holidays with my kids. And I couldn’t ask for more.

Life is strange. We just need to be patient and trust the process.

Happy 2020 everyone!